Convicted by my own words...Really?!

I am totally outdone with myself. I really don't know what else to even say. It has been over a year since I blogged. Sad. So here is the ugly truth. I have been seriously down on myself. I need to get over it and be done, but I just haven't been able to do it. I decided I would blog Friday. I don't know why, but I thought I should post something. When I logged on I began to read the last two things I had posted. Would you believe the Lord used them to convict me? All I can say is "IT FIGURES". I really felt like throwing my hands up and giving the Lord a big fat "WHATEVER", but I decided that would be irreverent, although, quite honestly, I figured He could have handled my aggravation. Without going into too much detail on my ridiculous struggles of late, I will just tell you I tend to forget how much the Lord loves me. I tend to forget that He has a plan for my life and that He will complete the work He started. I found myself complaining way too much (like my kids & the children of Israel I wrote about in that last post). I just get impatient and frustrated...am I the only one? There is one thing I can say though...I like knowing He will set me straight. What in the world would I do if He didn't? His correction is proof enough of His love. I am thankful for His kindness and compassion. If only His children (including me) would show the same kindness and compassion to others, the church - not to mention the world - would be a totally different place. I wonder if it is as hard for Him to correct me as it is for me to correct those I love...if so...it gives me a whole new view of His heart. It makes me love Him even more.